October 2, 2017

A Year Later --

It's hard to believe that it's been a year since I last wrote on this space. The story is the same -- life got in the way, I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with this space, and in fact, I recently considered deleting it all together.

But life has thrown us an interesting curve ball lately, and I have too much time on my hands. I miss writing, and I miss having a place to put my thoughts down. I don't know who is still out there, or if anybody will even see this, but for my sanity, for the time being  ... I just needed to write.

So here we are. This space is close to my heart, has so much history -- and I don't think I could ever just leave it. So we might as well utilize it.

To catch anybody up, we have been back in the states for about three months now. That's a story for a different day, but we are loving our new duty station and are working on loving our new life. It's been a rough transition, but here we are.

If you're around, say hi!

September 22, 2016

So ... Where Have I Been?

This space has been so random for so long. Truth be told? I almost deleted it. Wiped it clean and considered starting over somewhere new. But when it came down to it, I couldn't.

I love this space.

It's been mine for many years now, and taken me through so much. Lucas's early life is all here. Max's, not to much. That's my fault, and well, motherhood really. Then we moved, and I just sort of lost control of my life.

I had grand plans of sharing all of our adventures here in Germany (yes, we are still here), but things just didn't go the way I expected them to. Staying at home with two CRAZY, crazy boys is a lot. My husband travels way too much for work, and I sort of found myself in this place where I wasn't really moving. Same things, every day ... over, and over, and over again. Everything I loved sort of fell to the wayside, and I figured out how to much make it through the day.

But I recently decided that enough was enough. It was time to take my life back, as much as I could. Do things that *I* love again, and that includes writing. I did a very poor job these last two years of making time for myself. So enough is enough.

Writing is one of the things I have missed the most. I have always enjoyed it, and for many years, writing here, or my last blog, was cathartic for me. A way to just feel at ease with my life, and spend some time with my thoughts. I look forward to doing that again.

There won't be anything fancy or crazy here. Mostly just me writing. I recently started the Keto Diet, and am loving how easy it is (I should have done this so long ago!) so perhaps some food recipes and such. Pictures of the boys for sure. But mostly me, taking my life back.

Thanks for sticking around, those of you who have. I'm glad to be back. 

September 8, 2016

Work in Progress

I don't even know if anybody is still around, but .... I miss writing.

More to come, my friends, but I am in the process of making some changes, and working on writing again. If you have stuck around, are still following, and still checking in, I appreciate you.

Ignore the mess for now, while I adjust and fix some aspects. I should be up and running by next week.



December 10, 2015


This is the tenth post I've written in 2015.


This is shameful.

I've been contemplating what to do with this space for so long. Life these days is insane. I mean, an almost two year old and a three and a half year old, both currently home all day with me, leaves little time for much of anything. Earlier this year I quit Jamberry and transitioned into being a Presenter with Younique, with a mindset of "all in." Between the boys, and the business, and the husband, it doesn't leave much time for anything else. But if I'm being honest, it makes me sad.

I miss writing.

Last year when we moved here, I had this grand intention of turning this into a travel blog, mixed with Parenting nuggets, and still, in the back of my head, I want to do these things! But do I get caught up on all the travels we've taken this past year? Do I just start from scratch and fill in where I can? Do you REALLY want to read about what terrors my two toddler boys are? IS ANYBODY STILL EVEN OUT THERE? As it stands, I have one sitting at my feet, tugging on my sweater, crying his eyes out. Because it's been two whole minutes since I glanced his way. I'm sure having toys flung in my direction is coming next. THIS IS WHAT I DEAL WITH.

I'm just not sure. I love this space, and it's been mind for so long now, that I can't bring myself to abandon it completely. But at the same time, I am sure most of you have already moved on and forgotten. Which is my fault. I really, really want to make more time for writing.

I'm hoping some things change in the new year -- school for the boys, for starters, giving me a few hours a day of time to take care of ME and the things I miss/love. But, that's not a guarantee in the near future. But man, I really miss writing. I just really don't know where to go from here.

Stay tuned ... I guess.

July 10, 2015

Hi There.

Well .... hi.

Oh man. Three months? THREE. That's ... a lifetime in the blogging world. Is anybody even still out there anymore? Probably like, two of you. Hi.

Man, you guys ... life. In so many ways. I can't even begin to wrap my head around what has happened to us since APRIL, and I probably won't even try. There are days where I think I need to just stop with this blog, but there are other parts of me that find writing so therapeutic that I want to keep it. Also? I am enjoying getting our travels down, even if it is six months later.

So we are just going to jump right in. What has happened since April? First off, Lucas turned three. THREE. Technically in March, but I never wrote about it, so here we are. I have so much writing to do, and I most definitely want to get that down. So I will. So I currently have an almost 18 month old and an almost 3 1/2 year old, and my life is insane with these two.

Solo parenting. I do this a lot. A LOT. More than anybody realizes, because I never talk about it. Probably the only two people who know how often my husband is gone is my husband. And then probably my Mom after that. I really need to find some more play groups and meet some more I people, because man ... all the loneliness that comes with being solo all the time is wearing me down.

My mom. She's moving back to the states. Like, next week. I can't even write about this because I get choked up, but this past year here with us has been so wonderful. For me. For her. For the boys. But right now, I can't talk about that, so I'll come back to that one eventually. You know, six months from now ;)

I wish I could say that these past three months have been filled with amazing stories and wonderful adventures -- and yes, they have! A little bit! We visited Garmisch, which is an insanely gorgeous region in Southern Germany. We spent five days in Italy. We've seen castles and hikes and explored more of our own area. I still love it here so much. But, I also have two CRAZY children, who suck every bit of life force out of me during the day! Most days, it's a struggle to get out of bed and get going. I want to sleep. They want to run a marathon. At 5:30 a.m. But, you know, coffee & concealer! (Maybe that's what I should name my blog?? Ha!)

As always, I'm going to vow to write more. If only for my sanity. The mommy shuffle get's exhausting sometimes, doesn't it? It's a hard balance trying to do what I need for me, and doing what I need to do for my family. I'm a work in progress. Toddler years are hard, man. But, here's hoping I'm around a lot more often.