September 28, 2010
September 27, 2010
This is, perhaps, my most favorite song of hers. So beautiful with so many meanings. Enjoy.
September 26, 2010
You might say I was a little stubborn. Ok ... a lot stubborn.
I really want this to be as holistic as I can possibly make it. The hippie in me wants to do this naturally, free of drugs and tests and chemicals. I know that at some point, I will give in and go see a doctor if I don't get pregnant soon [it's been almost a year since we started trying again], but for now I'm pushing the holistic approach.
This means herbs. Lots of herbs. I'm also trying to cut out the things that I know to not be very condusive to trying to get preggers. The wine is hard, because I love my wine. The coffee is even harder. I'm from Seattle. Coffee runs through my veins. And I've been drinking it for so long, that the headaches when I do try to quit are a major bitch. But -- baby steps, no pun intended! I need to do everything that I can, change what can be changed & fix what needs to be fixed to feel good about making this work.
I'm also going to start doing some more reading on the topic. I've found some really great books about fertility and am looking forward to starting those. I need to get over this worry & fear that it will never happen again & concentrate on being HAPPY. I know the moment I let it all go and stop worrying will be the moment it happens for us again. Easier said then done on so many levels, but I will continue to stay positive!
September 23, 2010
I have another blog out there in the blogosphere that I would consider pretty successful. My monthly traffic lingers around 4,500 hits a month, which is pretty decent for a website that consists of nothing but ramblings. September saw a whopping six posts from me, and still my traffic stays high. I don't get it. But I also have a VOICE over there. A consistent theme that for the last two years I have stuck to. A voice that a lot of people can relate to.
But I sort of got tired of that voice [hence, only six posts this month]. Not that I don't love the life that I lead, or the things that i do. But that purpose has started to wear on me. I sort of need a break. Blogging over there, more or less, has become a chore. And I definitely don't like that feeling. Which is why I started this blog, and didn't really mention it to people. I wanted to start fresh, and to open my world to things that didn't necessarily fit over there, but that I loved none the less.
But finding that voice -- that one thing to keep the posts coming -- has been difficult. I feel sort of random here. Like I don't really have something to stick to. Just me, writing. Random things.
Maybe it's a good thing. I wanted a place where nobody knew me. Where I could say the things that I wanted to say honestly, without fear of backlash from friends or family. A very small handful of people know about this site, and they are all people that I trust completely to not judge or cast me away for something that I have said. Anybody else who finds their way over here is extra, and welcome! [Hello!]
But I feel like I need a purpose to write, and I haven't really found that purpose yet -- a reason to keep people coming. I will get there, I suppose. Eventually. And in the mean time, I'll just keep writing my random thoughts down, and thanks to the peer pressure, I will try to do it more often ;)
That is all. :)
September 21, 2010
Something warm to sip on.
Not having to go to work on a week day.
A worn out pair of sweat pants.
Lazy Sunday mornings in bed with the husband & dogs.
Any adorable, cute & fuzzy baby animal.
A great cup of coffee.
September 17, 2010
They also had these adorable little measuring SPOONS that I of course had to have to complete the set. I have both of these displayed proudly in my kitchen, and I am terrified to use them for fear of breaking and dropping one. But how cute are these little guys?
September 5, 2010
Been a while. Holy crap.
By the way? I am totally craving ice cream. Just sayin'.
It's been a rough couple of weeks in our lives. Work is kicking my ass -- and I'm not particularly enjoying it, seeing as how working my tail off does me NO good, my coworker is a biznatch & my relationship with my boss is pretty much in the toilet. I tired of feeling unappreciated, while also being told that in order to move up the ladder, I need to suck up more. So, I've hit the "just getting by" mode.
Go to work. Get shit done. Go home.
We also had to bury our beagle last week, due to a pretty brutal attack by our neighbors dog. It's been rough, because we love our fur babies like they are real babies. We have also been the ones to be punished by the county (we're being fined, and they wanted to deem our dog "dangerous." HA! A beagle ... dangerous! IDIOTS). It's been a mess.
I'm just feeling like enough is enough. I trying to build on some connections that I have made, in hopes that I can start a freelance company, or at least start getting some freelance work. I'm tired of working in an office -- I REALLY want to work from home and decide my own schedule. Actually, I really would just like to take a break from working all together, but I know that's not feasible. At all. Financially, we just can't afford it. But whatever --- I'll take working from home any day!
So we will see what the future brings. I'm hoping that somebody can help me out and point me in the right direction. I need a change. I'm not happy right now and I just need something different in my life. Somethings creative -- doing what I LOVE to do.
We will see. Hopefully it happens soon!